Feeling at the very lowest, just finish talking to my mom..
I love her, a lot. But talking to her always make me feel inferior and unproud of myself. Why does she always need to focus and zoom in on my flaws? Of all my life, if there's the good and the bad, she will forever choose to see the bad side, no matter how good the good is. All i did, all i studied. Its just to please my mom and all i ask for is her to be prouud of me, for once. Because i know, she havent been all proud of me before. I felt that i did my best, but why?? Even my best effort is still not good enough, somehow it feels like it nv will be? you really make me wonder what is there left of me that you can be proud of? Does anyone know what does it feels like if everyone, except your mom will proudly show you to the world?. im feeling miserable, like NOW. idont wanna moan and yank on my blog, its supposed to be a happy post. i was at the midst of uploading party pics. shall continue tomorrow.
It's saddening. All i did, i did it for one person. But that is the only person that i know i could nv please.. LOSER!





okay, im much better now, emotionally. But like im like bigtime flu. and this is MADDENING.
gosh. okay. so like went to BYC new year PARTY. it was fun. all like 300 plus workers get tgt.
like factory of belt, bag and necktie,office staffmaid,driver and store person.. All come tgt. LOL.
so pics!. Oh, yah. and the theme of the party is BABY/SENIOR CITIZEN.
like it was.. messy?

game (:
office staff.
qeo,poon, ae, one
the cooly enthu senior citizen :D
the BOSSes?
LOL, SPEECH.
i was force to tie my hair. LOL

i got like milk bottle hanging.

so ya.
DAD
i(:
DANCE

This was like when we were all still normal, only like napkin ard. LOL
:D PEOPLE
LOL.

bought stuff for

robert

mydin

chun kit

melody

serene

thanks for being there, at all times.

for tolerating and withstanding my rudeness, meanness , and impaitientness.

i'm blessed, having them in my "FRIENDS" catagory.

I know, no matter how far are we, how mature we become and whoever, in future our friends would be. All of you will NV EVER be forgetten.

They've seen me through painful but necessary realization, all my blissful, hyper, emo, MAD, naughty, assholic, mean, NICE and serious moments.

Many said that when sorrow shared, it becomes half but when joy is shared, It doubles. And i, wholeheartly believe in it. (:

serene'smy FLOOR?
Ours (:
unique-ly special.
PENCILSS
MINE! :D

okay, so im officially sick. LOL. this is funny la. like i felt sick for the past two weeks buthen i haven taken any like real real medicine. LOL. and now, my voice is gone. but its like when i don't speak, i feel okay and unsick. OKAY, i mAD.

oh yah.
my results. LOL. its like im happy with all my results EXCEPT ENGLISH.
like in sch, i've nv gotten a C for eng luh. SERIOUSLY. and now like im told that i gt C6?
BUT BUT BUT. i'm cool about it. Didnt panicked and all.
Some says that maybe the britains dont like yr story, some mention that my handwriting makes my whole essay unreadable. LOL. But NONE said, hey.. maybe yr eng is not up to standard. LOL.

okay so my grades:
ENG : C 6
A MATH : A2
E MATH : A1
PURE CHEM :A2
BIO/PHY : A1
HUMANS : B3
CHI : B3 (edited) MAD, my chinese is like impossible to get A1 luh, robert is SICKK!
and did i mention that those that obtain a1 for chinese and english are SICK. MY GOD.
how is that possible.