before the year end.
i've learn that if i cannot ammend, i should accept.
so my resolution for next yr will be trying to learn how to accept.

Anw. i will have to be back in thailand, its kinda confirmed.
i will be back on the 5th and then back again.
so i guess, relationship will have to be re-test.
LOL.
but oh-well.
if we cant sucessfully go through period like this,
then i guess we aint right for each other.
if im proved that what majority thinks for you is true.
Then i guess,
if tts the case.
it'd be so much easier for me to take my leave.
without tears and so much sadness.
:)
how?
when you really really from the most bottom of yr heart want things to last beautifully, want to see it yr way, want to be all optimistic abt situations but you know. you know so well tt in the end things will be rotten and ugly. and sure i know, just don't want to recognise tt im making things diff for myself. how sad, i just want to trust you and want to give it all but i cant, because humans are very clever animal. i've learn how to protect and love myself a little more. and by loving myself, i have to keep my guards up when you're concerned because, i once cried so much and so hard for you. And nv ever again, i would allow such foolish actions from myself.
Afterall, Love is only a game?


AND WE'RE BACK ON SUPER TALKING TERMS. JUST SOME MISUNDERSTANDING AND IT WILL NV BE EXPLAINABLE BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING TT I, MYSELF DONT UNDERSTAND AS WELL.
LOL.

okay, gng for boat tour today because thomas parents are here. :D

CYA.