okay, and so basically. this is my room :D

anw, i come to realise that in life, only one is possible.

Most of the time, the rich have got bad family relationship and the poor is often, very family-orentitated. so, whats the point of having everything on the outside, and very little or even empty on the inside? i really wanna know..

everyday, when i reach home. i enter a place just for shelter, not for warmth. Like its almost impossible to find warmth anywhere. Family members dont see one another in the house. Everyone has their private life and there isn't any family dinner time. Me and one of the bro even have to communicate through msn.

And every step i take on the stairs and for each level i reach, (for info, my room is at the 4th floor.) its like the place has re-enhance its emptyness. like loneliness multiply by 4. Yes, these ppl are rich, filltly loaded. everyone has a mercs or bmw. The youngest has his own 4 storey terrace. But whats the point of having it all? i just wonder?

Because no matter hw much billion you have, it can nv bring love, care and warmth.

So for now, whether i understand what its like tt or not. i'd just have to learn to grow up and adapt living in a non-living place.

i've to try to understand tt every man lives alone, because everytime when i wanna say i feel so alone and loney, i need company. it will only be interpreted as IMMATURE.

hah.