okay. like finally. i managed to drag myself to sign in to blogger to post. LOL. many has happened the past few days, or rather the past week.

i'm in thailand now. AGAIN. but its fun, this time round. really. my room is great, people are like family and i'm learning a lot. Like in singapore, you're always stuck with the same people, same enviroment, same shopping malls, same kind of duplicated faces on the streets. Yup, it feels really great to have a massive change. :D shal post my room pics tmr.

So i shall be systematic. i shall blog about every aspect of my life. :)

WORK:
work has been great, went to a massage and spa to check out the way the run and all the operations and the managment.
Yesterday, went out of bangkok to corat. A rice mill, i think the boss is like super HOT la. serious. okay.
My work is like FLEXIBLE. in the morning, i do self study on contracts, L/C and all the other different ways of payement. Then in the afternoon, i go out of office to look at different companies. And then at night, oftenly willbe having dinner with nutty, the lady boss's youngest son. LOL.
the place tt i live in feels homey. :D i can just continue staying. (((:
i mean like even it isnt that nice, i'm alr here and gt to have that"okay, i'm here. LETS GO" attitude. But seriously it is nice la.

FRIENDS:
obviously, i miss my friends. And to me friendship is essential. Have been talking to robert, melody, jas and serene daily since my arrival ((:
i dont need lotsa friends. i just need a few, till forever kinda friend.
a little msg for:
si min, jasmine, serene, robert, chunkit, cherry, kiao, duang, xing yi, melody.
Almost all have seen almost all of me. the way im piss, crazy,emo, sad, when i feel like im the smartest, fat,irritated, mean and NICE.
Thanks for sticking by and being there at the worse of times. i sincerly apperciate efforts and also million thanks for tolerating me. i know at times, i'm damn unreasonable and super diff to deal with. But, duh. i was nice too la. *-*.
so all of you MUST continue tolerating and be with me for the rest of my life. (:
ive learn that Friends, are silblings that share diff blood. LOL. suddenly it sounds wrong. i was just trying to say that the friends are like family. :D

LOVE:
okay, yes. i'm single, officially.
im done with tolerating, done with giving in and letting you lead me. i think i was MAD.
okay, so i was once that super nice gf. for him, anythingis possible. i can wait up, i can smile even when im angry, i can go against my strongluy upholded principals. And then it comes to a point wherby, i always need to find excuses to convince myself everytime something feels wrong that its okay, its just my imagination. Like hw pathetic cause i know, i truely know tt something IS wrong. i saw pics, heard from many and i've seen it myself.
But because of love, i amazigly can lie to myself. See, when you go through this, one fine day. you will be overly exhausted and like okay im way pass needing excuses and im ready to take shit, but if its over what i can hold then BYE. its over. No heartache, no tears and definetely, no turning back.
i dont like overly sexual relationship, i dont like no convo relationship, i dont like the fact that you see that im childish and immature when i share how i feel with you. i dont like it when you raise yr voice. i hate me when im with you.
i like one that has lotsa convo, a bf that can see all of me, know me like hw my friends know me, that i can run to when i cry, that would listen and share. Someone that want to see stars with me, and that i can speak all my brain's thoughts with. Some one that is like a bestfriend in a nt bestfriend way (: i need someone that feels responsible for me and not one that can easily chuck me aside when something more appealing come.

with you, i nv once felt like im yr priority and you know you can effortlessly keep me. But i'm someone thats needs effort to keep. if i was important, you woud have had some sense to relised you need to call. But BOOHOO, so over that period of missing, waiting and guesing. LOL.

i took one whole year to realise that you're not what i want. i Love you, yes. But i hate the way the relationship is. You've killed all my curiousity and proved me that you're too much for me to handle. So goodbye. i dont belong to you, and nv again. i will. be that good gf that you push around.

You can no longer steak m y breath and make me panic and all. i guess, its over. really really over. i'm happy and i want it to stay that way. :)
BLESS YOU.
hope you would be able to drill some responsibility and selflessmness in to yrself soon.


okay, gt to wrk. will upload pic soon.
TATA.