before the year end.
i've learn that if i cannot ammend, i should accept.
so my resolution for next yr will be trying to learn how to accept.

Anw. i will have to be back in thailand, its kinda confirmed.
i will be back on the 5th and then back again.
so i guess, relationship will have to be re-test.
LOL.
but oh-well.
if we cant sucessfully go through period like this,
then i guess we aint right for each other.
if im proved that what majority thinks for you is true.
Then i guess,
if tts the case.
it'd be so much easier for me to take my leave.
without tears and so much sadness.
:)
how?
when you really really from the most bottom of yr heart want things to last beautifully, want to see it yr way, want to be all optimistic abt situations but you know. you know so well tt in the end things will be rotten and ugly. and sure i know, just don't want to recognise tt im making things diff for myself. how sad, i just want to trust you and want to give it all but i cant, because humans are very clever animal. i've learn how to protect and love myself a little more. and by loving myself, i have to keep my guards up when you're concerned because, i once cried so much and so hard for you. And nv ever again, i would allow such foolish actions from myself.
Afterall, Love is only a game?


AND WE'RE BACK ON SUPER TALKING TERMS. JUST SOME MISUNDERSTANDING AND IT WILL NV BE EXPLAINABLE BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING TT I, MYSELF DONT UNDERSTAND AS WELL.
LOL.

okay, gng for boat tour today because thomas parents are here. :D

CYA.

Talking to robert/serene really will make my day.
LOL. No matter how shitty life gets, just a long talk will make me a-okay. ;D
talking to robert now.
YA.

so had company dinner last night.
and PICS.

family. duh.
me on heels. LOL. *-*

Erm? it was cowboy party la. gt a hat frm the dinner. :)

performancesss/


Thats me presenting the prize.

my mom

NAUGHTY BOY!
he snap that.
PARENTSSS


okay, many have been happening here.

Family is getting a little dysfunctional, or maybe its just the relationship with my sis.

i hate to talk abt it, but its seriously driving me crazy.

So here it goes..

My sister, the one and one only one sister i have.

she, i would say is really one special soul.

She is..

someone that i fight and argue with since young

someone who always come up with anti-fat-plans with me

someone who i have spent seeing almost my entire life

someone who can nv go on cold war with me for more than a day

someone who i can be really discusting in front of

someone who i enjoys being with

someone who can catches my random crazyness and joins in naturally

someone who i hope would be happy

one for the few in my life that i really love

we shared a relationship that was way beyond sister

we were futher than close.

we had a bond that no one would understand.

She, i thought, was the only one in the entire universe that could understand the complications between me and my parents.

Though at times we really hated each other, but deep deep down..

we really loved one another.

i know i'm sounding like a 3 year old here. SRRY~

Many times when hurtful words were exchanged, we know it ain't truth.

we still can love and care for each other again the very next day

and i thought it'd always and forever be that way.

but i was proved wrong.

after so much that has happened.

i feel that life, its filled with lies and so few truth left that suddenly everything seem to be fake.i was feeling dissapointed rather than angry for what have been done.

because you promised.

i've been trying my hardest to think and see it the way you guys see it.

you're an older sister for godness sake, how is it possible that you wouldnt tell ma the little dirty hidden secret of mine.
HA. how naive of me to have told you so much.
maybe its just my problem.
wrong guy, wrong time, wrong relationship.

anw, thanks.

my dearest sister for being such an ideal sister.

i apperciate all that.

its proven that we're different people, and i know you're proud of it.

i've learn to accept your faultsbut all you did was drill really hard on mine is there a choice? we're stuck with one another because we share a really special relationship known as the SISTER. those days where we still hides secrets from one another, boy, it should've remained that way.then, we could still laught,talk and do the stupiest thing tgt, happily like always..
but i guess it all comes down to me being me. And though seen as a loose girl in yr eyes. i'd still happy being me and i wouldn't, under any condition alter my behaviour.

Sorry for being sucha difficult family member, i know you dont get to choose either.

BUT OH WELL. IM DEFINETELY OKAY OTHERWISE.

okay. shall upload pics :D frm china. so like i said, i went china for like 1 and a half day. and i think the travelling time and sleeping time is seriously longer than the time spent looking at china? YAH.
but anyway, it was quite educaational, acutally. get to learn a lot regarding construction. :)

So im Yao ShiRui and i'm the owner of the blog. :D
The pictures are in super random order. HAH

So this is me on the plane.
And this guy is irritating, he is like intrupting my movie.
Lunch. Desserts. (:

The Movieee.

LOL, like adult pram.
oh, thats my dad over there.
thats my legy. HAHHA
:D waiting for the person beside me to come.
And there he is, an indian. :(

This is typical in china streets.
My Dad and arerat.

The whole time, my brain was occupied.
rojak outfit.

The view from somewhere?
i broke that car BUT i managed to fix it back.
Construction site :)
Meeting~
And i'm inside too, see my HAIR? HAHHA.

The san tou airport that drives me crazy.
:)
my room.
:D
:)

Guang Zhou airport
WAITING for FLIGHT.
He ask me if he was handsome. LOL. i went.. er.. okay la. *-*
My Daddy.
Thats me!

The food again. im trying to be like robert. taking pic of aeropland food. LOL.
i liked him then. :D
YUP.
He wasn't into taking pics with me acutally.

ERm? i think this is the new air craft.
DADDY ACTING LIKE SOME BABY IN THE PRAM. HAH.
AND ME :DD
MY FINGERS.
AND MY SEAT.

And this toilet bowl is funnyly funny eh?
This is for the spoilt ppl. LOL.
And the buisness class play place for spoilt kids. UNCUTE.
Once again, we travelled tgt. LOL. quite amazing.

Dont always see me as a small little girl, throughout the years and months. i've grown.