im in the office, like everyone's feeling sick today.
BOOO. And like you feel the era and unenthuness.
so basically, i stayed home yesterday, had like zer0 energy to go anywhere, so was absent for work.
Just had medicine now and i feel uber drowsy. Got to like sleep but i cant. So i had no choice but to blog cus like my task is to complete reading the fabric dictionary which is like very very'eye close and lets sleep'stimulating.

HAPPY 18th TO ROBERT OU YANG CHUN((:
you've been great in almost everything.
thanks for being there on that Ang gone wrong day- that was preety much necessary.
And Thanls for being ever so understanding towards me.
i think like seriously, my temper, tolerance level and everything took a change for the worse.
so like im not so nice anymore? i guess.
But despite that you are still so willing, caring and worried about me.
i apperciate that.
So now,
knowing that we'd most probably end up in different schools.
i wish you all the best, know plenty of great friends, all the happiness in the world and no matter where and when, be safe at all times :)
and always and forever be my very important friend.
:D
sorry for being sucha ass sometimes yah, esp this whole thailand cum results period.
LOVE YA!

(pics willbe uploaded)

Feeling at the very lowest, just finish talking to my mom..
I love her, a lot. But talking to her always make me feel inferior and unproud of myself. Why does she always need to focus and zoom in on my flaws? Of all my life, if there's the good and the bad, she will forever choose to see the bad side, no matter how good the good is. All i did, all i studied. Its just to please my mom and all i ask for is her to be prouud of me, for once. Because i know, she havent been all proud of me before. I felt that i did my best, but why?? Even my best effort is still not good enough, somehow it feels like it nv will be? you really make me wonder what is there left of me that you can be proud of? Does anyone know what does it feels like if everyone, except your mom will proudly show you to the world?. im feeling miserable, like NOW. idont wanna moan and yank on my blog, its supposed to be a happy post. i was at the midst of uploading party pics. shall continue tomorrow.
It's saddening. All i did, i did it for one person. But that is the only person that i know i could nv please.. LOSER!





okay, im much better now, emotionally. But like im like bigtime flu. and this is MADDENING.
gosh. okay. so like went to BYC new year PARTY. it was fun. all like 300 plus workers get tgt.
like factory of belt, bag and necktie,office staffmaid,driver and store person.. All come tgt. LOL.
so pics!. Oh, yah. and the theme of the party is BABY/SENIOR CITIZEN.
like it was.. messy?

game (:
office staff.
qeo,poon, ae, one
the cooly enthu senior citizen :D
the BOSSes?
LOL, SPEECH.
i was force to tie my hair. LOL

i got like milk bottle hanging.

so ya.
DAD
i(:
DANCE

This was like when we were all still normal, only like napkin ard. LOL
:D PEOPLE
LOL.

bought stuff for

robert

mydin

chun kit

melody

serene

thanks for being there, at all times.

for tolerating and withstanding my rudeness, meanness , and impaitientness.

i'm blessed, having them in my "FRIENDS" catagory.

I know, no matter how far are we, how mature we become and whoever, in future our friends would be. All of you will NV EVER be forgetten.

They've seen me through painful but necessary realization, all my blissful, hyper, emo, MAD, naughty, assholic, mean, NICE and serious moments.

Many said that when sorrow shared, it becomes half but when joy is shared, It doubles. And i, wholeheartly believe in it. (:

serene'smy FLOOR?
Ours (:
unique-ly special.
PENCILSS
MINE! :D

okay, so im officially sick. LOL. this is funny la. like i felt sick for the past two weeks buthen i haven taken any like real real medicine. LOL. and now, my voice is gone. but its like when i don't speak, i feel okay and unsick. OKAY, i mAD.

oh yah.
my results. LOL. its like im happy with all my results EXCEPT ENGLISH.
like in sch, i've nv gotten a C for eng luh. SERIOUSLY. and now like im told that i gt C6?
BUT BUT BUT. i'm cool about it. Didnt panicked and all.
Some says that maybe the britains dont like yr story, some mention that my handwriting makes my whole essay unreadable. LOL. But NONE said, hey.. maybe yr eng is not up to standard. LOL.

okay so my grades:
ENG : C 6
A MATH : A2
E MATH : A1
PURE CHEM :A2
BIO/PHY : A1
HUMANS : B3
CHI : B3 (edited) MAD, my chinese is like impossible to get A1 luh, robert is SICKK!
and did i mention that those that obtain a1 for chinese and english are SICK. MY GOD.
how is that possible.

Just finish a vegetiarian meal. :D like i didnt excatly finish la.

okay.

so i will upload pics.

SAT: dog's gromming

went with nut to take the dog for grooming.

LOL. damn fun!

SUNDAY: bbq (:

group picture (:

this is forever hapenning, due to imaturity :D

this is the self proclaim handsome kind. LOL, and this is a self captured shot. LOL.

the very thai kind of thai. LOL.

so life's okay now, over that emo period. HAHA.

i will stop acting like a small girl. YES!

okay, so now, i'm doing a bag project.

to build up a 'build yr own bag' kind of idea brand.

:D anw, results will be out soon. Its on thusday.

AHHHHHH.

quite scary can~ gosh..

okay, but like i'm looking forward to the friday byc company party.

((:

and guess where i am now people?

im at the boss office. LOL.

and yes, he is talking.

okay.

gtg. BYE!




just wanna let show how slack can it be. :D the designer, p'bee.

okay, and so basically. this is my room :D

anw, i come to realise that in life, only one is possible.

Most of the time, the rich have got bad family relationship and the poor is often, very family-orentitated. so, whats the point of having everything on the outside, and very little or even empty on the inside? i really wanna know..

everyday, when i reach home. i enter a place just for shelter, not for warmth. Like its almost impossible to find warmth anywhere. Family members dont see one another in the house. Everyone has their private life and there isn't any family dinner time. Me and one of the bro even have to communicate through msn.

And every step i take on the stairs and for each level i reach, (for info, my room is at the 4th floor.) its like the place has re-enhance its emptyness. like loneliness multiply by 4. Yes, these ppl are rich, filltly loaded. everyone has a mercs or bmw. The youngest has his own 4 storey terrace. But whats the point of having it all? i just wonder?

Because no matter hw much billion you have, it can nv bring love, care and warmth.

So for now, whether i understand what its like tt or not. i'd just have to learn to grow up and adapt living in a non-living place.

i've to try to understand tt every man lives alone, because everytime when i wanna say i feel so alone and loney, i need company. it will only be interpreted as IMMATURE.

hah.

okay. like finally. i managed to drag myself to sign in to blogger to post. LOL. many has happened the past few days, or rather the past week.

i'm in thailand now. AGAIN. but its fun, this time round. really. my room is great, people are like family and i'm learning a lot. Like in singapore, you're always stuck with the same people, same enviroment, same shopping malls, same kind of duplicated faces on the streets. Yup, it feels really great to have a massive change. :D shal post my room pics tmr.

So i shall be systematic. i shall blog about every aspect of my life. :)

WORK:
work has been great, went to a massage and spa to check out the way the run and all the operations and the managment.
Yesterday, went out of bangkok to corat. A rice mill, i think the boss is like super HOT la. serious. okay.
My work is like FLEXIBLE. in the morning, i do self study on contracts, L/C and all the other different ways of payement. Then in the afternoon, i go out of office to look at different companies. And then at night, oftenly willbe having dinner with nutty, the lady boss's youngest son. LOL.
the place tt i live in feels homey. :D i can just continue staying. (((:
i mean like even it isnt that nice, i'm alr here and gt to have that"okay, i'm here. LETS GO" attitude. But seriously it is nice la.

FRIENDS:
obviously, i miss my friends. And to me friendship is essential. Have been talking to robert, melody, jas and serene daily since my arrival ((:
i dont need lotsa friends. i just need a few, till forever kinda friend.
a little msg for:
si min, jasmine, serene, robert, chunkit, cherry, kiao, duang, xing yi, melody.
Almost all have seen almost all of me. the way im piss, crazy,emo, sad, when i feel like im the smartest, fat,irritated, mean and NICE.
Thanks for sticking by and being there at the worse of times. i sincerly apperciate efforts and also million thanks for tolerating me. i know at times, i'm damn unreasonable and super diff to deal with. But, duh. i was nice too la. *-*.
so all of you MUST continue tolerating and be with me for the rest of my life. (:
ive learn that Friends, are silblings that share diff blood. LOL. suddenly it sounds wrong. i was just trying to say that the friends are like family. :D

LOVE:
okay, yes. i'm single, officially.
im done with tolerating, done with giving in and letting you lead me. i think i was MAD.
okay, so i was once that super nice gf. for him, anythingis possible. i can wait up, i can smile even when im angry, i can go against my strongluy upholded principals. And then it comes to a point wherby, i always need to find excuses to convince myself everytime something feels wrong that its okay, its just my imagination. Like hw pathetic cause i know, i truely know tt something IS wrong. i saw pics, heard from many and i've seen it myself.
But because of love, i amazigly can lie to myself. See, when you go through this, one fine day. you will be overly exhausted and like okay im way pass needing excuses and im ready to take shit, but if its over what i can hold then BYE. its over. No heartache, no tears and definetely, no turning back.
i dont like overly sexual relationship, i dont like no convo relationship, i dont like the fact that you see that im childish and immature when i share how i feel with you. i dont like it when you raise yr voice. i hate me when im with you.
i like one that has lotsa convo, a bf that can see all of me, know me like hw my friends know me, that i can run to when i cry, that would listen and share. Someone that want to see stars with me, and that i can speak all my brain's thoughts with. Some one that is like a bestfriend in a nt bestfriend way (: i need someone that feels responsible for me and not one that can easily chuck me aside when something more appealing come.

with you, i nv once felt like im yr priority and you know you can effortlessly keep me. But i'm someone thats needs effort to keep. if i was important, you woud have had some sense to relised you need to call. But BOOHOO, so over that period of missing, waiting and guesing. LOL.

i took one whole year to realise that you're not what i want. i Love you, yes. But i hate the way the relationship is. You've killed all my curiousity and proved me that you're too much for me to handle. So goodbye. i dont belong to you, and nv again. i will. be that good gf that you push around.

You can no longer steak m y breath and make me panic and all. i guess, its over. really really over. i'm happy and i want it to stay that way. :)
BLESS YOU.
hope you would be able to drill some responsibility and selflessmness in to yrself soon.


okay, gt to wrk. will upload pic soon.
TATA.

okay. new yr pic's up :D


k, this is one of the most ex. car. LOL. ard like 3.4 million sing. like lamer can. spent so much on a transport. like 3.8 millioncan cabb and take planes forever la. LOL. i dont like the owner la. thats why. HAH.

:) we spent new yr on the boat. it ws ne for the greatest place i've been. :D
happy people
:D wasnt excatly ready.
ploy's mom is cute. HAH
:D iwas bored

MUMMY.
the thailand bridge. (:

:D we love one another. ann and monica. MONICA is funnyly lameD JOHN.
HAHHA. the very first moment of 2008
happyly wedded?
PICS PICS PICS AND MORE PICS>

:D
FAMILY.
my dad's second wife. HA
:D HAPPY NEW YEAR. that was what i was convying. LOL. they live long. hah.mum.
(:
groupies
lol. he was drunk. the buffeet served on the boat. LOL.FAMILYYYY.qi, pls dont feel sad. LOL. YUCKS, i must say.er.. just wanted fire works in the back grd la. LOL.RANDOM. i think my photography skill degrade. LOL. i was trying to capture the happiness on board. but ifailed. like you can see, it only protray amiko;s blurness. LOL. and lastly, the amazingly preety fire works to bring us to 2008.. (: