NOONE WAS THERE WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE SO BADLY.
NOT YOU, NOT HER,NOT THEM AND NOT EVEN HIM.
FUCKING BAD.
DAMN SHIT!
AND THEN NOW COMES THE STUDYING PART.
LIKE WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!!
THIS IS LIKE FORCING YOUR BRAIN TO KILL ITSELF.
I HATE IT WHEN THE SKY TURNS DARK.
I HATE IT WHEN I'M ALONE.
I HATE TO WAKE UP AND KNOW THAT MID YEAR IS COMING AND NO TYM IS LEFT TO WASTE.
I HATE TO BE IN ALL THIS STRESS.
I HATE TO GO THRU WHAT I'M EXPERIENCING NOW.
I HATE IT WHEN I NEED TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT I'M AFFECTED BY YOU.
I HATE IT.
SUPER VERY FUCKING HATE IT.
I WANT MID YEAR TO GO
I WANT YOU TO STOP AFFECTING ME.
I DON'T WANNA FEEL DEPRIVED OF LOVE.
I WANT TO GO SHOPPING
I WANT TO BUY PINK STUFF
I WANT BAGS, SLIPPERS, HEELS, SKIRTS, DRESS.
I WANT MY CHOCO HELLO PANDA.
I WANT TO GO CHATUCHAK.
I WANT ICE CREAM,SWEET,COTTONCANDY AND LOVE.
I WANT TO BE NATURALLY HAPPY.
I WANT TO FEEL LUCKY BEING ME.
I DON'T WANT SO FEEL SO EMPTY AND ALONE.
I WANT TO BE IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE.
I FEELING FUCKINGLY SHIT NOW
I'M JUST A LIVING DEAD AT THIS VERY MOMENT.
FEELING THE WORSE OF THE WORSE.
THE SHITTEST OF THE SHIT.
EVERYBODY CANJUST DIE NOW!

i'm feeling BAD.
missing some stuff that is GONE.

anyway, i'll be carrying out my BRILLANT plan tmr :D
meeting my dearest dear serene, robert and chun kit.
LOL.

you're all abt her.
grow up kid.
stop degrading and taking yourself down.
i'm sick for being there for you.
afterall, i'm just some kind or replacement?

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just got home from school (:
i think i'm like a happy happy girl living in my busy busy world.
LOL. i'm happily studying.

anyway..
Did maths today, taught serene chem.
ohh, i skipped 400+ times for P.E-i sweat like PIGG :DDD
i'm focusing well. *-*
and i like so want tmr to come NOWWW.
SO EXCITINGG :DD
first i'm buying apple pie for chun kit, serene and robert tmr (:
then gng to stadium for sports day
some brillent people suggest to wear HEELS to the stadium tmr.
WOOOO~
going to swim and tann +)
studying at serene place after that-which will most probably FAIL
meeting melody for dinner or somthing
coaching skates with brandon, this is the last activity of the day. :DD
and then going to airport to study on saturday ((:
okay, i'm like blogging stuff that haven't happen. LOL.

your answer ((:
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside

i still very very hate DOGGIIE COW :DDDD

OHMYGODD.
i think i like FUCKKING hate the COW.
see, i hate people that say dumb stuff without even knowing me.
i mean like what the fuck,
i'm acting pityful?
how well do you know my life bitch!


today was like free free day, like almost all the teacher weren't in school.
oh, i totally believe in KARMA.
robert laughed at my pimples and he got his lips swollen, thats like so EXCITINGGG :DDD
and its not gonna be okay cause he hasn't learn his lesson, he only learn what it feels like having a HUUGGEEE lip. this is making me HAPPY.
i know i'm mean, but my pimples will go. ((((:
ohh i think i'm like a bit suppose to say, get well soon robert *-*
i like didn't study for like dayss. HOLLYSHYTEE!!
i totally got to start.
anyway, i like regreted eating so much today.
it all started with like chocolate ice cream with bananas in the morning and then like curry noddle-which was the cause of robert's swollen lip :DD like what the hell right.
And then like i'm so excited cauuse i'm like going to BANGKOK during the holidays. going to like revent my wardrobe, at least there's like something to live for :DDD


i've so many doubts.
how can two lovers become like strangers?
how can you just walk away
without hearing what i've got to say.
our connection, our love, our promises?
every hug, every kiss, every touch?
was it all lies, all fakes, all made-up?
then how can it seem so real?
how can you lie so flawlessly?
how can you be so cruel?
how did you managed to take my breathe away every moment?
where did everything go?
what kind of fucking shit ending is this?
OHHHHMANNN.


i had great great fun yesterday.
thaks guys.
love you people lots and super srry for my mom's scolding.
my dear melody, my mom ain't gonna muder you!
anywayyy, love me more ehh, thats a must!
*-*